It is known that sleep is health, and what if it does not come?
I try to be vigilant, listen to myself, I have suspended many of my activities temporarily, because I see that the problem can be more complex, and I want to end this stage as soon as possible and want to do it fully consciously.
What is insomnia?
Insomnia is a disorder of the correct rhythm, time, depth and individual phases of sleep.
The problem is the concept of sleep and even if he succeeds, sleep can be shallow, restless and short-lived.
If this process is short and we know what is causing it, it is not bad. It is worse if this condition lasts for a long time, starting from a few weeks up, and begins to affect our daily functioning, because insomnia significantly affects our well-being, mental and physical condition.
What is the cause of insomnia?
The causes of insomnia are a whole bunch and it can be different for everyone. The most frequently mentioned are:
➤financial, family, health or work-related problems,
➤family member disease
➤separation, loss / death of a loved one,
➤prolonged and often subconscious stress,
➤depression and depressive states
➤nightmares and night fears
➤too many stimuli, strong and unexpected experiences (both negative and positive),
➤health problems that we don’t know about,
➤toxic relationships.
Insomnia is a sneaky bitch
I have found this out in recent months on my own skin.
She appeared suddenly, did not ask if I wanted to have her company, she settled in my life, disrupted the rhythm of my life, did a lot of damage in my head and body, made me afraid of something that I had never allowed myself before.
However, I am a strong woman and although I tend to be fragile, I have a lot of determination and a will to fight something that I did not deal with in this edition.
Those who know me longer know that I always functioned at night because I am the type of owl.Late nights are magical to me. I love them.Evening is a time of relaxation and rest. My evenings are also filled with a relaxing bath, reading a book, but I value the most moments when I can think about my day and plan another. This is my time and I don’t like it when someone takes it for me, that’s why I need this silence.I am a type of owl regardless of the season, age or lifestyle. I function better at night than in the morning – I am more creative, focused, calm and open to new initiatives. It is for me such a ritual part of the day, from which I draw a lot and from which I do not want to give up.
However, the time has come for big emotions, experiences, accumulating problems and family worries. There were health problems that I had never had before.It’s not that I can’t rest, I just had too much time to think about what might happen and there was too much stress in my daily duties.In addition, I clearly feel that with age I became more sensitive and empathic, I experience everything more strongly, and the bad news coming from outside still caused me not to notice when it all began to overwhelm me, when I crossed this thin line of experiencing and stressing what takes time, patience, humility and understanding.
Did I open a Pandora’s box?
I am a strong, optimistic person, drawing a lot from life, caring for others, but at the same time not neglecting myself, experiencing everything very strongly, emotional, valuing strong sensations and not afraid of challenges.This sometimes causes me to be too greedy, too “take” my life too much, I take too much, I give too much.However, I do it with full awareness, because I know what the fragility of life is and I want to experience it with my whole life.
I realized that my strong character traits and my appetite for life can also be treacherous.People like me burn more, experience disappointments too much, suppress too many emotions and eventually explode, generating huge stress.
But I have many difficult experiences behind me and a few traumas that I came out of and which strengthened me a lot.So why did I break this time?Too many bad things have accumulated, too many emotions and experiences, and even though I’m tough, I gave up too much to some.
Well, let it not be that I am in some black hole, good things are happening and I will come back to them soon.
It’s scary when you get a problem for the first time and you think it will pass like any other, and you realize that it could be the beginning of something bigger. However, I do not allow myself to such a thought and act. I also have no problem with the fact that if I feel the need to go to therapy, I will do it.
I do not have depression, although I have mood swings, but it certainly results from the fact that I am currently struggling with a worse mood, health problems ,worries, pregnancy-I just have to wait, chase and / or tame.
Especially at night, when the body and brain completely refuse to cooperate with each other – the first one wants to sleep, the second one goes crazy.
When I have a weaker day, I am afraid of the night because I know that I will experience many hours of suffering again.To be honest I feel even rage that it happened to me, but despite all these difficulties, I will also emphasize that I value this experience because I know that I will come out stronger.I am of good cheer, have strong will and motivation to fight. I don’t like giving up, I can’t stand the feeling of powerlessness.
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